Day 5 - 7:41 AM

I am at work now after waking up after another 5 hour Ambien induced sleep. When I woke up I was in mid thought of some dreamt scenario of something I was thinking about last night, as if I was reviewing a wanted outcome of the situation. I hadn't even opened my eyes before I realized that I was awake and it was much to early. The day before I had gone to the gym which didn't really seem to have any effect on my sleep one way or the other. The Zoloft seems to make it so that things that otherwise affect my moods just don't anymore. Yesterday evening I was again unable to release the doves with Cathy after what was otherwise a fantastic interlude to the evening, so that makes it at least 5 days straight. I hope when I see the doctor tomorrow she can give me something so I don't have to live this way.

Day 4 - 11:06 AM

I took Ambien to go to sleep around 11:30 or so, but I was dilly-dallying until 1:00 AM. Annoyingly enough I woke up at around 4:30 AM and slept on and off until after 9:30 when I woke up with a start realizing that my alarm was just hissing because the station got changed to static. It was very strange because it felt like I wasn't sleeping but then I would roll over and look at the clock and an hour and a half had passed. I felt a little groggy getting out of bed but after a while I felt reasonably rested. I took my Z before leaving for work and now that I am here I am clearly noticing a difference how I feel before and after I take the pill. I am not quite so fuzzy as before which may mean that the initial side effects are fading, but since Saturday I have yet to address the other side effects which are my larger concern. I am seeing the doctor on Wednesday to discus the entire situation.

One other thing I am noticing is I am eating a lot less, particularly as a reaction to cravings. I think this may be because I eat when I am not huingry and the Zoloft is curbing that behavior. This is a good thing, as I have already lost 4 pounds since I have started taking it.

Day 3 - 4:01 PM

Getting that extra 4 hours of sleep was a good move. The Xanax didn't leave me too fuzzy and I felt pretty clear headed for the first hour of the day. However, I took the Zoloft at about 2:30 and now I feel kind of remote. It is hard to describe. I was trying to write a description of something and I was really struggling. Normally I am really good at presenting something in words but I couldn't get anywhere. I am thinking this is a result of the meds. It is as I am not supposed to really be noticing things for at least a few weeks and it is only the forth dose I have taken. I am going to talk to the doctor tomorrow (Monday) and see what she thinks. I am also going to see what she thinks of Welbutrin since they claim to have less occurances of sexual side effects.